Tuesday, June 27, 2006

daku akan menulis dalam bahasa melayu hari ni

hari ini, aku mendapat beberapa komen dan pendapat serta teguran orang lain yang menyebabkan aku berfikir sejenak...memikirkan moral dan pengajaran di sebalik komen tersebut...sama ada perbincangan tersebut mempunyai maksud tersirat atau terluah daripada mulut seseorang secara tidak sengaja....tahukah apa yang sedang terngiang-ngiang di dalam otak saya yang ligat tetapi berpinar-pinar sekarang?...aku merasakan diriku sebagai ketua tingkatan yang tidak berguna....teguran demi teguran mengatakan kelasku bising seperti pasar mengimplikasikan bahawa aku tidak memimpin kelasku dengan baik...pasrah yangku hadapi berbeza semasa tingkatan 3 atau 4...sekarang, aku telah mematangkan fikiranku secebis demi secebis...tetapi aku masih menghadapi kemelut...aku senantiasa riang dan tidak kedekut untuk memberikan senyuman...kawanku berpendapat ku ni sentiasa gembira dan tidak menghadapi masalah ...tabiatku yang lain ialah aku tidak suka melawan balik apabilaku dihiris dengan sembilu kata-kata yang paling tajam sekali pun...hatta, aku merasakan mereka tidak melayani aku sebagai kawan setia lalu tidak menghormati kedudukan aku sebagai pengawas dan pemantau di dalam kelasku...kendatipun, masih ada segelintir kawanku yang boleh diberikan kepercayaan....setiap hari, aku berasa agak tertekan untuk memberikan konsentrasi kpd pembelajaran ...kawanku bercakap seperti pemborong ikan telah memburukkan lagi situasi..tiap-tiap hari aku terpaksa mententeramkan keadaan kelas walaupun sukar keranaku juga takut reputasi kelasku makin buruk...aku mengakui diriku sebagai seorang bersifat hipokrit...baik di depan sesetengah rakan dan guru tetapi buruk di depan sesetengah rakan...hmmm....susah juga kehidupan manusia ini...kena menggembirakan orang lain...aku telah berfikir dan bercadang untuk mengekalkan kesabaran nipisku untuk 4 lagi bulan..selepas spm, aku akan ke kolej dan aku tidak lagi mahu tengok wajah kawanku....aku mahu berada di persekitaran baru serta mengekalkan profil yang rendah...aku tidak mahu terlibat dalam apa-apa.mungkin aku akan mendapatkan diriku seorang teman wanita...itulah luahan suaraku sebagai seorang remaja yang berasa muak dengan kehidupan

sorry if u guys especially charmaine n mario dun understand...but it's gud dat u refresh ur memory

19 Comments:

Blogger wallpaper said...

even me oso dun understand many words , but i can agak-agak wat it means lar ... blardy hell ur bm damn frikin gud !!

newayz i din noe u din like us =.= i mean i never wudve guess u wanted a low profile life n never wudve guessed u dun like to see me , yh , etc... T.T

2:04 PM  
Blogger anonymous said...

nope dude.i said masih segelintir boleh dipercayai....so u n yh r one of'em...n hopefully u dun poke me in the back dat make me hate u

4:36 PM  
Blogger charcamayne said...

Hei kawan, mengapa kamu putus harapan? Kita dilahirkan di dunia ini bukan akibat kemalangan.

"aku senantiasa riang dan tidak kedekut untuk memberikan senyuman...kawanku berpendapat ku ni sentiasa gembira dan tidak menghadapi masalah..."-->Aku juga sama dalam hal ini. Ini tabiat baik.

Dalam kehidupan seorang manusia memang kita menghadapi berbagai-bagai masalah. Akan tetapi, itu tidak memberi kebenaran untuk kita pasrah. Hadapilah dengan hati terbuka dan fikiran positif, masalah besar nan jadi kecil, malah lesap.

BTW I can still understand quite some. Really surprised, ur malay so good.

5:15 PM  
Blogger Twinkle Tinker Twins said...

wow~! i din aspect dat ur bm begitu hebat~!
emm...memang tidak boleh dinafikan bahawa perkara inilah lumrah hidup seorang manusia...(haha,my bm oso not bad~)

my class monitresses n prefects r facing de same prob 2..but they juz take it easy ...anyway juz few more months 2 go...enjoy ur sch life 2 de fullest.

Abraham lincoln said that a man is about as happy as he makes his mind to be.

Lex Schumi says that 'Life must go on. Juz stay KOOL n b + '

5:47 PM  
Blogger Twinkle Tinker Twins said...

wow~! i din aspect dat ur bm begitu hebat~!
emm...memang tidak boleh dinafikan bahawa perkara inilah lumrah hidup seorang manusia...(haha,my bm oso not bad~)

my class monitresses n prefects r facing de same prob 2..but they juz take it easy ...anyway juz few more months 2 go...enjoy ur sch life 2 de fullest.

Abraham lincoln said that a man is about as happy as he makes his mind to be.

Lex Schumi says that 'Life must go on. Juz stay KOOL n b + '

5:47 PM  
Blogger jakcrash said...

budak sial... tulis dalam bm buat saya pening kepala XD

ur bm damn skill. can be translator for one of the politicians. XD

dont worry so much this kind of thing. just go with the flow, then when teachers ask, blame everybody else. XD

dont worry tj, i still ur good friend so i wont stab u in the back, only the front. XD

selamat meninggal jkjk selamat tinggal

7:58 PM  
Blogger wallpaper said...

ahahahhah stab from da front lolololol

8:07 PM  
Blogger jakcrash said...

u can help if u want, just make sure u tell him u gonna stab him first. XD

8:20 PM  
Blogger anonymous said...

stab from the front is better from the back i m tellin u.........eh....supposingly u comment bout my post not bout my bahasalar....apalah!...

10:25 PM  
Blogger anonymous said...

dear charmayne,
everything has its boons n banes...i m a guy, u r a gul...if i always happy like got somethin wronglar...ppl starting to lose confidence in me..thank god it's onli 3 months b4 spm...then i can run away from my problem although some might say u can nvr escape frm ur probs

10:27 PM  
Blogger anonymous said...

dear lex schumi,
my probs r differ frm ur frens a bit...i m got a bit of reputation amongst my teachers...so i felt like a failure by not doin a gud job

10:29 PM  
Blogger wallpaper said...

i wish skool wud never end .. its a surprise u cant wait for skool to end ... it seems our view of skool life is total contradiction >.<

anyway glad lar dat im dikecualikan from ur posts XD

11:40 PM  
Blogger anonymous said...

fuck u, yh,,,u go n f gw...haha....XD...jokin man..u wun write like a tadika ok?...just hentam any nice word u noe...fucklar..is their attitude problem..very hard for us to do anythin...i wanna run out from the gate rite now n this last few motnhs would be hell in a cell..my patience is running thin on every1...thnk god i still like studying...or else i will be a cocked up guy

12:51 AM  
Blogger anonymous said...

if i lose my concentration n interest, i better be a janitor

11:01 PM  
Blogger charcamayne said...

i sayid always b happy doesnt mean all day long go around and laugh or whatever la

just maintain a happy and positive outlook on life. and I'm serious about that.

and my name is charmaine. get that right! =p

1:18 PM  
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